Wednesday, May 18, 2005
sigh.. life is just so whacked.. i have failed my CHEM, PHYSICS, BIO tests this term.. insted of going up, i am travellin further down.. but don know why,. i can't give a shit no more.. i tried so hard and got so far, and seriously it sure does not matter to anyone.. sigh.. was just thinkin that in a few more months, MY WHOLE LIFE would be determined.. EVERYTHIN, from my job, to pay, to wife, to housing, to car to every other materialistic need.. but it will not affect any of my emotional or psychological needs.. no matter who the crap i am.. i will always be happy.. or will try to be lah.. but would love to get a job that gives you +$10000 a month.. that'll be nice.. but askin around.. it seems impossible to reach that w/o hard work and of course wont get ther till i am thirty.. damn.. by that time, i`ll be a wrinkly ole hag.. hahahha.. imagine, aayush the grandpa!!! lol.. sigh.. i need to study.. but got no motivation.. what happened to all that love ahit that got you so far aayush? err... gone down the freakin drain i guess.. hahaha
-Aayush
