Thursday, June 09, 2005
went for swim camp from monday till like yesterday.. it was a intensive trainin camp.. no one told me anythin about missin sleep and feelin a wee bit low.. hmmm.. the floor was bloddy hard and the room was toooooooo cold.. could not have imagined it.. hahaha.. but was a very nice expreince.. trained my ass off.. also, some one give me some councelling.. it went somethin like this..
you are always tryin to fit in.. always becomin somethin u are not, always triying to LICK PPLS ASSES.. you must keep it real.. like be yourself.. let me ask you, why do you keep swimmin?
me- becoz i need some drive and discipline and need to get myself to work..
*silence*
me: well, if you don like it , I'll quit.. serioulsly..
no.. its not that.. just be yourslef.. you see this is a sphere.. the cool sphere.. you are putside of it.. you are trying to dig ur way thru.. don't.. just stay outside.. keep it reall.. thats why i don feel comfortable talkin to you.. and thats why many ppl hate you...
*end of session*
eerr.. ok dude.. never really knew i was like that.. fine.. i'll do as you say.. but i never really wanted to be in the cool place.. i just wanted to have friends and be frinedly.. neither do i lick ppl asses.. i don need to.. i have every thin i want and need.. sigh.. i was bloody down these few days becoz of this.. it kinda got me thinkin..
-Aayush
