Tuesday, September 20, 2005
yes. that is EXACTLY what i am.i have totally upset like my brother. someone because of who school was fun, someone whom i could count on, someone who was there for me EVERY time i needed him, someone whom i should basically get on my knees and beg till forgiven. o man. i do not know what i was thinkin when i did it and a thousand apologies are NEVER enough. i am really sorry man. its like WHOA, how could u do this aayush? kinda thing. its totally unethical and absurd. o man,. well, one thing is for sure. life is so shit these dsays, i feel like callin john and gettin back my satanic bible by antanio la vey. i gave it to him when i converted to christanity. now its like everything is wrong and i feel really FUCKES. FODA for prelims, parents on my arse, girls in my mind, friends leavin me one by one. this IS it. i should have jumped off the 25t5h storey when i had the chance. IAn dominic stopped me with his pep talk. damn. i feel forsaken and totally shit.. hey bro, if u read this, i seriusly wanna apologize again. i admit i did shit. but i seriouosly would not have if i had known the consequences. pls sms me or womethin if u read this man. seriously. i am really REALLY SORRY. damn,.
-Aayush
