Thursday, September 08, 2005
i am not geting honours. even though i did my job as a member of the council and what not.. but somehow, i do not feel sad angry or even a bit of remorse. i don know why. think skin maybe. who cares. don need no piece of paper to tell me that i served the school and served god. the lord shall give the ultimate honours. yup.and i am not bringing god into this to diffuse the situation or to help me feel better. THIS IS HOW I FEEL. thanks to fiona for all her help in this matter. if not, i would have done something real rash. and real bad too. and this chick(a bit too good for any guy on the planet.) thinks i look good. i bet she thinks otherwise after hearing i am not getting any awards. sigh. and wat sucks even more is that ppl will think of reasons as to why i did not get this award. well, to tell them all, i have a COMPLETELY clean discipline record, did not screw up or get fired from council or whatever. so stop buging me around. if not its a fist in your face. well, maybe. sigh. man. i juts got a hair cut, but still feel like shit. normally the day i cut my hair is like the best day in my life. it was like i was climbing the mountain of self confidence and was getting real high. then the honours night thingy came about and totally made me lose my grip, fall and the climber has died. well, now we shall wait for reincarnation.
-Aayush
