Saturday, January 07, 2006
sigh. at 12 midnight on the 3rd of january, my parents brought me outta of my room and sang the birthday song and i cut a half eaten fudge cake which i already ate a day ago. wow. and a couple of thick candles i gotta blow. i felt ubber miserable. but at least they asked me wtf i wanted for a present. i was just too damn depressed to ask for anythin. and i do not really want anything that they can give. as in what i want they cannot give u see. nvm. so i go to my room and guess what, slow and vijay both wished me by sms.. that kinda cheered me up for a while.. then as usual i made some promises and wishes and slept. nothin great really.. the next day in school, nalli and clare wished me along with fiona and a jizeng and other ppl. but my og echorwen forgot i think..haha.. not that i care.. everyone was so busy and stuff.. just happy i was not chucked into the mud.. met up with ian dominic and a couple of his friends.. on the day of campfire.. and had a blast.. aplied for a couple of jobs. but i doubt i will get them. i need a freakin job. sigh. an admin or tuition i guess.. haha.. damn bored.. party on monday!!! club home.. the dance floor is screwed up.. so small and THERE IS A PILLAR IN THE MIDDLE!!! wtf?? hahaha. nvm.. but i doubt there will be a crowd as it is on a monday!!! nvm.. listening to matchbox 20 bright lights. my fav for the moment.. ole but i like it.. haha.. sigh.. i love God. i sincerely do. i love all my friends and family. just wanted to say it. haha.. and i have strong feelings for someone now. but i am so scared that i will screw it up with her that i do not dare take any steps. i am also afraid it will be too late.. what to do? any advice?
-Aayush
