Thursday, March 16, 2006
Liberate me from this darkness,
Set me free from these chains.
Holding me down and under,
They are completely insane.
Henceforth, I profess my skills,
Unable to see why I cannot be you.
You have done so much better than me,
But why am I not up to the mark,
I have no clue.
Do not beg, borrow or steal,
Earn your living as a sparrow will.
Clear the dark clouds and you`ll see,
The liberation and fulfillness.
Do not set foot into anothers domain,
Unless it can be determined,
What relation you have with them.
they might see you as dormant,
unwise and undoubtly untamed.
Your heart is yours only,
Do not give it away even metaphorically,
If not it will be theirs,
and you`ll be left barren, clueless and still.
Liberate me from this darkness,
Set me free from these chains.
Holding me down and crushing,
You are morbidly profane.
wrote this shit during relief teaching one day. was so bored. It was a malay class. and i had absolutely nothing to do,. went to gym with nadim at SICC the other day. saw eugene, the guy from 2SB1. I bet he hates me for some unknown fucking reason too. nvm. saw another barker guy too,. from 4A1 i think,. forgot his name. he stared at me for a bit cause i was wearing the barker cricket shirt. but he was wearing the barker pe tank top. did some abs exercise on this sports ball. now they seriously hurt. Its astonishing how fat one can get.. My aim is not to be a body builder with a bulky muscular body. all i want is a proportionate beach boy, surfer kinda body. but don now wtf to do for it. i guess NS wil kinda ruin it. nvm. trust God and it`ll all be fine. hmmm. havent prayed in a while. will do so soon. things kinda got strained for me in terms of faith after release of a levels results.. Things are going EXCELLENT for me in terms of relationships. yup. its kinda funny though. when you want it, you cant have it. when you have it, it just comes pouring in. and also, when you like go out looking for love it never freaking happens. but when you give up and just say"i am gonna die single" it comes to you.. haha.. my ex got in touch with me, and this other girl, Swati, from SAJC i think whom i asked out but this other guy stole her cause i lost my phone in sec 4(when i was a fat arse) contacted me too. i mean like wtf? haha.. but heck. all this is nothing. there is no one who comes even close to Her.. damn is she on the losing side. Jin li was right. but i juts cant get wtf is between her and this other guy. maybe one day it`ll be clear. and even if she leaves me for him, i wont mind. cause as long as she is happy, so am i. period. haha.
-Aayush
