Wednesday, August 30, 2006
i am shit scared. i gotta book in soon and ike its gonna be the first day of PTI course tomorrow.. and the first thing is IPPT..fuck.. its C+3 standard, the COMMANDOES one.. like must get 25 points and under 9.14 for running to get gold.. i hope i do man.. my shuttle run and STANDING BROAD JUMP really cant make it.. i barely got a gold the last time.. and the running!! OMG 9.14? i nearly died and got 9.28.. shaving another few dozens of seconds is really impossible.. ubber scared man.. and they don really treat us that great either.. i am seriosuly fucking scared.. just nervous and afraid.. cant sit still.. been on a eating binge.. i really hope God lets me make it through these next few weeks fine.. only ten more weekS!!! and i`ll be ubber happr.. no more trainging and a certificate for being a gym instructor and a swimming coach by the singapore sports council. but i hope i make it through.. havent been so scared since like ages.. since like JC days.. prelims then a levels.. same wish, to let me make it through... and i did.. but STILL i am super scared.. sheesh.. maybe i should stop writing.. and i am broke too.. a bit broke actually.. sigh.. and i got no one to ramble to.. thats even worse. why do men like to keep their worrie and views inside>?? we should open up like women do.. but hey, that would mean we`d be bitching.. hmmm.. its fine like this i guess.. but SHIT!! i am still really scared.. somebody save me man.. a call to no one. a call to the beyond.. HELP H E L P H>>>>E>>>>L>>>P...
-Aayush
